Life has been a little tougher and harder on me. I feel like my strength is being tested. I haven’t been completely honest with myself, and by that I mean I haven’t been expressing my feelings like I normally do. All people hear are complaints and frustration out of me. Honestly, I’m just a broken little girl inside. I had to grow up sooner than I should have. It was my choice but it was also my parents and the people I surrounded myself that led me to want to achieve and explore more.
Today, a rush of hurtful memories ran through my head like a black and white old movie film. It felt like the whole world was out to fight me and I felt defeated; weak to my knees. I let so many people hurt me and it was a matter of time that I shattered. I haven’t… yet. I feel like I’m striving to survive in this cruel world. Dont get me wrong, I’m not giving up nor am I falling but I know something is wrong. I can feel it in the pit of my stomach. I’m not quite sure what it is yet.
But why am I hurting? Whats wrong with me that I’m not able to figure out yet? I have a whole life ahead of me and I’m barely here. One thing for sure is that I know where I stand and I’m not going to let anyone get in my way. I worked too hard to get here.